I came back yesterday from Guatemala and Belize. The trip was absolutely fantastic, I felt I was in the pure state of clarity and bliss that I am starting to get familiar with now pretty much the whole time. I had a couple of powerful meditations, I also started to write a journal, and I went through a couple of spiritual books: The Celestine prophecy: an experiential guide, and Awakening the Buddha within from Lama Surya Das, which perfectly resonate with "the new me". More significantly, I felt deeply connected, pretty much every minute, with everything/everyone that was around me, like as if they were, in reality, me. A part of me. Amazing feeling.
I have resolved to stay at my current job another 8-12 months until I know more clearly what the next step to realize my new-found calling will be (e.g. studying at a psycho-spiritual university to get a degree in transpersonal psychology?).
But now that I’m back to work, my "energy level" has dropped suddenly: I feel confused again, and sort of depressed. It suddenly dawns on me that I might have to quit my job sooner than I had resolved... as I don’t think I'm going to be able to go on like this much longer...
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